Still Point

It's been a bit of a hectic day. Laz woke up at 5 AM this morning. His teeth had been hurting him during the night. So we got up for about 3 hours in the early morning until he could get back to sleep. Even then he was pretty fragile for much of the rest of the day as well. Easily distressed and just generally having a rough time of it. Sigh.

It's very quiet now. Everyone has gone to sleep and I'm just sitting on the bed in relative silence. It's good to find a still point. My attempt to meditate today was aborted pretty quickly. I was just too tired, so instead of drifting in and out of sleep on my cushion, I just crawled into bed and napped with Laz. In this case it was probably more productive.

It's a bit weird here surrounded by 'inlaws', those people who are family and yet I don't really know them all that well. I know them a bit, but not that much. Slowly I get integrated, but the process is certainly not fast. It's not helped by the fact that for many years I've had job commitments which have kept me from visiting when Sunshine did. Now, with Laz, it's a bit harder. Often I need to support Laz so Sunshine can get things done here. (Particularly this time with all this wedding stuff going on as well!). Ah well, patience. Meanwhile, I can continue being the polite alien.

The moon is pretty out the window.
Laz is stirring.
I should sleep.